Ringing in the new year.

For 2010 things are going to change in my life.  I am not going to bother with making senseless resolutions such as; losing weight and so on. Ofcourse, that will be one of my goals, but I think there are more important things in my life that need attention. I have put up with far too much crap from a lot of people, but that chapter in my life is over. I am a little tired of being walked on by people and being taken advantage of, so the year 2010 is going to be a new beginning in my life. So, this is it, either it's going to be done right or not at all and I'm going to work on getting the stronger and independent me back. I miss her and I am going to find her again. I am planting both feet firmly on the ground in the year 2010 and I am not putting up with no more bullshit from anyone and I am going to find the old me again. For those who don't take me seriously, need to. Because, I am very serious.

The new year...

I really hope the year 2010 turns out better than the year 2009 has started and is ending. This has been a very difficult year in many ways and the year 2010 could not come soon enough. Many things have changed this year and I cannot say they have changed for the better. Maybe the year 2010 will bring me a little hope that things will get better in the future. However, they way this year has gone it is getting a little difficult to be optimistic.  It has just been one thing after another this year. Don't get me wrong, there are a few things in my life that bring me joy.I know one would say I should be grateful for what I do have; well I am most of the time. It's just that sometimes the struggle is a little tiring. I used to be very passionate about life and always looking for ways to improve my life and strive for more. Nevertheless, lately that flame is dwindling and I am running out new ideas. I used to be a strong independent woman and I thought I could overcome anything; this year has been very sobering. Somehow I lost her and I need to find that woman inside of me again.

The recession is far from being over.

This so-called recession is supposed to be almost over. LMAO.  Who came out with that one?  They say there are thousands of jobs out there.  That's funny, there are thousands of low paying jobs out there, is more like it.  They are just sugar coating the truth.  While searching the web, I found a posting for a secretary.  They were asking 2-5 years experience and a BA degree in business for $10.00 an hour. Four years ago someone with a four year degree would laugh at them. Now, they are scrambling for the job.  Employers are taking advantage of the abundance of workers out there who are unemployed.  There looking at it as an oppurtunity to lower the wages they are paying people.  It's insane!  I am beginning to think, it's the beginning of a new way of life in the United States.  The one thing these employers are not thinking about is, the less money people make, the less money they will spend.  Which will only send us into a deeper recession.  Which means, there business will make less money. Apparently, they failed economics 101.  The funny thing about it, they will probably blame Obama, when it was Bush who put us in this recession. And... an overwelming number of Americans voted him in for the second time around.  I remember telling my boss who voted for him the second time around, you will regret voting for him because that so called tax break he was promising small business owners didnt include him.  He is now out of business and I am out of a job.  I guess I couldn't have been more right about that one.

Today's Youth....

Today's youth have no respect for adults.  You can do your best to raise your children to grow up into good respectful adults, but something happens along the way.  It's like they have a sense of entitlement and feel like they don't have to respect anyone, not even their parents.  The schools have interfered with parents doing their jobs as parents so much, that it makes it almost impossible to raise your child.  The schools have filled their heads with so much crap about how parents shouldn't do this or shouldn't do that, they have given youth way too much power to twist their parents arms.  If you don't do what they want when they want, they think they can just call the police on you or tell someone at school.  You don't even have to do anything and they will make up lies to try and force you into what they want you to do.  Then when they are bad or misbehave in the school or in society, it's our fault; we are bad parents and didn't do our job raising our children. When I was a child and a teenager, I would have never been able to talk to my parents the way today's youth talks to parents.  Sometimes, it feels like you are banging you head against the wall and can not get anything through to them because they know everything and you owe them everything simply because you are their parent.

Afghanistan: 30,000 More Troops... I say hell no!

I support Obama as president and hope he can bring change to the United States. However, I don’t support his decision to send more troops to Afghanistan. I would hate to say it but you can’t change the ways of the people of Afghanistan. In the eight years we have been over there, they have not changed yet. The little news snippets about how the last war changed the lives of the people of Afghanistan was only a smoke screen. Their elections are a joke. The people are forced to vote for a leader, they either vote for the leader the Taliban wants them to vote for or die. That doesn’t sound like democracy to me. We didn't help the people of Afghanistan then and we won't now, thirty-thousand more troops, isn't going to change that. They have had the opportunity on several occasions to take out Bin Laden, but the man is still alive and well. Fighting ‘til death is an honor for them, it is a way of life and you can’t change their culture or their religious beliefs. That is who they are and whom they will always will be. We may not agree with their way of life, but we can’t change them. The Middle East resents America for interfering with their way of life. The same goes with Iraq, we don’t belong there anymore. Most of the people of the Middle East believe we are sinners and want nothing to do with our way of life. I have been to the Middle East, they refer to Americans as Shat`an (Satan). They believe we are sinners and are going to burn in the seven fires of hell… and American Government thinks they can change Iraq & Afghanistan. It’s a pipe dream and might as well give up before the waste anymore of United States money or lose one more life of our great American soldiers by putting more troops in Iraq or Afghanistan. Unless they are a threat to our homeland, we need to keep our soldiers and our money out of Iraq or Afghanistan. There are enough children who has lost their parents to a losing cause.

When is it time to give up?

A friend of mine is going thru a very difficult time with her ex. She really loves this person, but he keeps lying to her and messing around. They go back and forth to one another.  She just can't seem to stay away from him and just when she thinks he has changed and he won't do it anymore, there he goes again.  I feel terrible for her because she really loves him, but he always breaks her heart.  It is tearing her up inside. What is wrong with some men that they can't just love one person and be with just one person?  Don't they care about how much they are hurting the person they say they love?  How can one person be so ruthless and heartless to not even care about how much they are hurting that person who would do anything to just to have this person forever and have them be committed to them and only them. He doesn't even realize he is torturing and breaking her heart. When you make a promise to someone you should keep it.  Men talk about women not knowing what they want. Some men are worse then women. They can't even decide which woman they want. And if we did what they did, we would be a lying cheating bitch. At least when we make a promise, we keep it. They can't say the same. Tell me how can you hurt someone so badly, you claim to love?  Is the thrill of cheating really worth fucking up your life and someone else's life?  They need to remember it is someone else's life they are fucking up & have no right to do it.

Sex, lies & marriage...

As I go online to my myspace, I can't help but wander what is wrong with people today. All their updates are posted on all of their friends pages, about 80% are sexual in content.  The sad part about it are most of these people are married or in relationships. People have become reckless.  It's not just on myspace, that includes anywhere else they are seeking a fling. Infidelity is even in the news almost weekly. Its like sex and marriage are two seperate entities. What did they get married for? You can have sex with you spouse. Why do they need to go out and seek meaningless sex with someone they don't know. In actuality, it's pathetic. It only shows they have no morals or self control.  They are probably the ones saying they are doing it because their sex life at home has gotten boring.  Did they ever stop to think their sex life has gotten boring because they are no longer putting effort into their sex life.  It's a little hard to get into it if the other person is laying there like a bump on a log. They are the only ones to blame if they marriages fail. Maybe if they put as much effort into their marriage as they do into having an affair, their marriages wouldn't fail. You can't be boring in the bedroom and expect it to be exciting. When your married, you need to remember your married and the other person involved has trusted you with their heart. How would it feel if they did the same to you? You would be running around telling everyone what they did to you and acting as though you are innocent when you know your not. If you want to IM, text or email someone why don't you try your spouse? It might actually improve your marriage.  Another excuse is, I just don't love them the same anymore. Well damn, if you are focusing your attention on someone else, your not going to love them the same anymore. It doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure that one out. You are taking away from the feelings that were meant for your spouse. It is no longer personal anymore.  Seriously, some of these people are just too damn old to be doing this shit anymore.  By the time you get in your mid-thirties you should be settled down and taking care of business not playing around like you are a teenager.  News Flash, your not a teenager anymore and you look ridiculous trying to pretend like your single and in your early to mid-twenties. By the time you have reached your mid-thirties, you only have a few good years left.  So, why don't you give up the childish games and get real. Infidelity is a desperate attempt to build self-esteem. Seriously, open your eyes and see the skank or skanks your having an affair with for what they really are.... and that builds your self-esteem. LMAO. No one likes a phony or a liar. You don't like to be lied to, so why are you lying to someone else? In the end, you have no real potential. If you wouldn't want to be married to someone that is unfaithful and lies to you, then why do expect someone to want you? You married them because you loved them. Why don't love them enough to be faithful? If marriage wasn't serious, you wouldn't need a lawyer to get a divorce. When did loyalty and honesty become such an undesirable trait that so few wish to possess them.